last night, i had a dream about you.
in this dream i'm dancing right beside you.
and it looked like everyone was having fun.
the kind of feeling i've waited so long...


it probably seems like i'm very difficult to satisfy. and it probably has to do with the vast number of hobbies and things that i enjoy doing. things that are not supposed to be enjoyed by 1 person. i think.

instructions: make a complete sentence which includes 5 or more of the following words.

drawing; baking; cooking; photography; dress-making; accessory-making; travelling; gardening.

it seems like a dream. but i hope it comes true. to be able to combine all my interests into one. but that probably means i have to work my ass off to get enough money to start doing something that combines all i enjoy. its daunting. the fact that i've come so far, and maybe end up with something i dont enjoy doing for the rest of my life. and it also is scary to think that something you enjoy would not feed you. i dont know which is worse. but i hope i experience neither.

maybe, maybe i'll wind up doing nothing that has anything to do with what i've studied. would that have been a waste then? i choose not to think that way. i probably wouldnt have been here typing this if i havent gone through anything that i have in the past 19 years, waste or not, i enjoy this sweet after-taste as much as i detested the moment when i had the bitter morsel in my mouth.

to have come this far and look back the past 19 years, time has gone by. very quickly, too. i do not linger, i do not regret. i have to move on. even if whats in front is blurred by the mist, i know i will make it.

dont stop, come a little closer.

mmm... tried making mochi a while ago... it didnt take much time actually... just bout 5 mins... but it wasnt how i wanted it to be... too soft... should have put less water... oh well...

i keep thinking about going out... but somehow i dont feel good enough... what should i do... maybe i should go shopping tmr... with my mother! sounds good enough... shall try vivo... or maybe just parkway... ha...

oooh! went to raffles to do model fittings today... cramp cramp cramp... the space is really really small... but there's like... 40 ppl in it? OMG... everyone was hustling about... models changing... ppl taking down alterations... help to zip! help to pin! help to do everything! ooh la la... thomas and vik said its gonna be worse on the day itself... yikes!

i'm really crazy about 2 things right now...

1: goong! do i need to elaborate on that?!

2: megatokyo! my new found interest! haha... well like mentioned in the previous post it isnt quite new... but yup... i'm starting to get hooked on again! i'm thinking of getting some tshirts ya know... wont it be cool?!



they're so cute! well... they dont have the black one in ladies! damn... i'll think about it... ph34r t3h cu73 0n35...

i swear i'll either die by ripping my throat apart or of fisherman's friend intoxication... i've downed like almost one pack today... which is 22 lozenges... and i dont feel better... wont it be great if they could invent something to stop throat irritation like just a SPRAY... or something... i have drunk like at least 4 litres of water today... and its not nice feeling so bloated... i dont even remember eating... cept for pills... but i did eat 2 bowls of chap chye *mix vege chinese style* and some pork ribs... ok... i need to feel better!! i had wanted to go shopping... my mum laughed at me this morning when i woke up with a sore throat... i got pissed off... yes... but nvm... i did went jogging yest with ev... havent ran with her for so long... but somehow the bad throat crept up after that run... was it really haze? i dont know... it just sucks... though i feel good having ran from paya lebar to kembangan... walked back... coz ev couldnt take it... BUT i did jog back from grandlink sq to my house and even flew up the stairs! OK not flew... just faster than usual turtle-rate... i'm proud of myself... coz my legs didnt ache today... shall do it again next week when i get the WHOLE WEEK OFF! my last week to enjoy...

currently i'm stuck onto my com... reading Megatokyo! again! haha... i forgot about it a few years ago... but now i'm back! so i'm going through some strips that i've already read to refresh my memory... so right now its me, my water bottle, my PACKS *note intended emphasis* of fisherman's and megatokyo for hari raya...

wed wed i shall go to sch again for sewing and *gasp* fitting! will be the first time i'll work as a dresser for a fashion show... by work here i mean free labour... but its exciting! though i'll probably drown myself in sorrow when i see their 24-inch waistlines... ok... nvm... right now i'll indulge in my fantasies... and i mean joo and kim... *melts* =D~ i love them so so much!

HA! TAKE THAT YOU WUSS!


*i dont really care how hideous i look... invalids always look bad... and anyway... i love how i am right now... i'm FREE*

TAKE THAT AGAIN!

today is ondeh ondeh day! haha... well my first attempt at trying to make ondeh ondeh... now i wonder why ppl make such a fuss over ondeh ondehs... they're fairly easy to make in my opinion... mashed sweet potato, glutinous rice flour, water/coconut milk, tapioca flour, pinch of salt, chopped gula melaka, grated coconut and you'll be all set to go... it does seem like a long list but compared to baking its so much easier... its just like making tang yuan... knead, roll, cook... and viola... of coz there are some tricks of the trade, like how long to cook it and how to get the gula melaka to melt all but with that tiny little bit of solid sugar crystal left... but thats fairly easy... i think probably the most difficult would be to make sure your ondeh ondehs dont burst from over cooking... haha... some of mine did but its still nice! =D~

i didnt weigh out my ingredients like in the recipes i got from... i just estimated and so long as i formed a nice dough... but you can find an ondeh ondeh recipe right here... but you can improvise!


i made some purple ondeh ondehs in tribute to minghui for indirectly reminding me to try out making ondeh ondehs... haha... i just substituted the japanese sweet potatoes that i used in the first batch to the purple sweet potatoes...


i REALLY like the colour! haha... they're so VIBRANT! and just look exceptionally cute after coated with dessicated coconut...


ME: i think ondeh ondehs should be coated only with a little coconut... too much coconut and it wont be cute already

MOTHER: you making toy or what?!

ME: must be ASTHETICALLY PLEASING also mah! (i'm definitely an art student!)


seriously... i'm damn full from all the ondeh ondehs... i think i probably ate 10... and i'm STUFFED... i think i made about 60 ondeh ondehs... about 25 for my father which had just coconut filling coz he's diabetic and i brought some over to my nanny... and i still have a lot left over! will have them tmr... haha... i'll die from ondeh ondeh poisoning... next time... i shall try using pulut hitam(black glutinous rice) to make the ondeh ondehs... =D~

*declares that all deepavalis shall be ondeh ondeh day!*

my guppy has given birth! haha... to a million(alright i know i'm exaggerating) of tiny little babies... yay! they're soooo cute... haha...



am waiting for my sweet potatoes to boil... trying to make ondeh ondeh today... will blog about it later!

yay! the long awaited letter has arrived! yay! i had been waiting so impatiently for this letter! haha... coz it was just taking too long... its my sem 1 results! heehee... even my father was impatient and he decided to take a peek at my results without opening the envelop... explains the torn window haha...



well well... it reminds me of many things... haha... firstly the colour definitely reminds me of tj result slips... haha the beige kinda colour and the layout is the same too! heehee... also the grades were kinda like my sec 1 first sem results too... but i do hope that it carries on being the same for ALL SEMS that i'll be going through the whole of my course in nafa... =D (i dont really want it to turn out like throughout my sec sch years... it just went downhill after the first sem!)

on the whole... i'm happy with my results... heehee... will strive HARDER! nonetheless...

busy busy busy!

and so... friday the 13th was dedicated to tj art coursework exhibition... heh... it felt... weird... well its just that time passed so quickly! i felt as if i had MY exhibition yesterday... i could still remember... how proud i was... and also sad that art was coming to an end... soon... but it wasnt really ending... just that all of us werent gonna be together that often anymore... i miss it so much... esp the time we had together in perth... but then again... it was a joyous occasion! and how can joyous occasions be without evinrude cakes! haha... well... i'm official baker of the art department i guess... lol... i just like the feeling of having them eat my cakes... so there i tried new recipes... chocolate with peanut butter filling... and peach! haha... the peach was a bit self-improvised... just tweaked it from the ordinary vanilla one... i totally LOVE the chocolate and peanut butter... well of coz it was absolutely sinful... had wanted to bake more but my 2nd batch of chocolate babies got burnt bottoms and i just decided to stop... my poor babies... haha...


peachie peach!


burnt bottoms dont taste good... but they are quite photogenic... =D

well i got to backstage of sfw! heehee yay! quite excited but also quite sick and tired of sewing everyday in nafa... will take off days! i need sun, sea and sand! i wanna go to sentosa... wanna go to vivo city... wanna do shopping... wanna get a tan... wanna get a swim! i need i need i need to slim down... i need to lose that tummy... and of coz other fats all around... haha... will persevere! PERSEVERE!

haha i was watching the mv of nothing in this world... the whole story was quite cute... haha... but then again... you had paris hilton shaking and twisting her butt all around the whole screen throughout the song... heh...

so... there i go back to sch to be factory girl again after a long weekend... including a self-proclaimed holiday... hehe... things really get very monotonous when all you do is sew sew sew... sigh... but then i said i would help out in the fashion show... and it was probably one good way i could secure the chance to help out backstage as a dresser during the sfw... (for the uninitiated... sfw = singapore fashion week) oh well oh well...

i watched the episode of oprah winfrey show this evening on ch 5... it was bout this group of women... and girls... and their insecurities... one of the girl in question was a teen model... prob 16... who is very pretty... at least everybody knows that... but always looks into the mirror and feel that she is ugly and fat etc etc... and even thought of suicide coz of that... i was then telling my mother who was also watching it... "in that case... i'll kill myself too... so will many other girls..." haha... well if you think i'm in need of a wake up call too like the girl on the oprah show... its not that case!!! you should have SEEN THAT GIRL! and well her mother tried to reassure her by saying... "well you're not fat... i'm the fat one"

competition... be it negative or positive... its always part of human nature... and very much present in women... i think its been naturally configured in every woman to be competitive about appearance... no matter how pretty or slim you are... esp in weight... dont you think? and somehow its interesting how every woman in that position would say... "you're not fat! i'm the fat one!" its like trying to making oneself be the one that should be sympathised with... as justification to their trying to lose more weight and their tight, stringent diet... well well... i've just analysed myself... haha... but no...i'm not changing my mind... i'm still gonna try to lose my 5 kgs... and i'm supposed to jog tmr morning... hee...

oprah show is one of the talk shows that i really watch somewhat religiously... except for certain boring episodes... but i've learnt a lot and also got a lot of *enlightenment* watching the oprah show... many episodes leave me thinking so much more than i would normally do... like the episodes on courageous ppl and dogs... episode on holocaust and genocide survivors (elie wiesel's NIGHT) etc etc... and not to forget episodes that leave me drooling! haha... all the cakes and burgers and great food... ooh... well... i sound like some oldie... haha...

talking about watching tv... i'm so happy that princess hours or *goong* has started... *ooh... eye candy!* and i'm even happier to find that its shown at 7pm instead of 10 like dae jang geum coz it means i get to watch my other ch 5 shows without interruption... project runway, csi, criminal minds, prison break, ghost whisperer... haha... whole night of entertainment for all weekdays! yay! i'm such a tv junkie! but i'm loving it...

1207... sounds like a good time to go to bed... or i will be too lazy to go jog tmr morning... =D (you will notice that i took a tat less than 3 hours to blog this post... well i'm a busy person! haha... multi-tasking while trying to write this long essay is just what i'm the best at!)

*TO FELLOW DIET-ERS (is there even such a word?)*

i had wanted to blog about this 2 days ago... but i forgot... well... blame it on the bad memory... i'm getting old...

was watching an episode of surfing the menu friday afternoon... the day i pronounced holiday for the factory girl... haha... and there they were! filming in rottnest! OH MY GAWD! btw... if you didnt know... surfing the menu is some kind of travel cum cooking show... where 2 guys go around australia and whip up some simple dishes... alright... i wont deny it... i'm watching it partly because of the eye candy... haha...

BUT! i stayed through that whole episode on friday because of rottnest okie! not the eye candy... well... it just stirred up alot of memories you see... i really miss the time we (tj art department 04/05) had there... well... not only there... just everything together... i just wished we were all still there... in rottnest... cycling... playing... well... just being together... the whole bunch of us...



suddenly i have a stupid idea... lets all go there again... someday... all of us... someday... somehow... this time... with full attendance...

*to memories...*

the haze is so bad! how do i go jog? dammit... i could distinctively smell it the second i came out of my room... bad bad bad... i'm supposed to be exercising and the haze isnt helping... sigh...

went shopping yesterday... didnt buy ANYTHING... haha... i dont know if its good or bad... good coz i didnt spend... and bad coz i didnt get my long awaited retail therapy! ahhh! i will go again! i have to... hee... ^^

past few days been working like a factory girl at a garment factory... haha... sew sew sew... but it was good practice for me... been sewing ribbons onto satin... if you do not realise how hard it is to sew that... you should find out some day... haha...

i really hope i get to go backstage during the singapore fashion week... oh pls pls pls... its gonna be such a good experience! and i hope i'll have eye candy backstage... hehe... well... i do mean STRAIGHT eye candy... hee... ^^

got to get to work! i have customization orders from a friend... so i'm coming up with a new design... and also a pair of new earrings for myself for my cousin's wedding which is next saturday! *and my uncle just informed my family last night! i was so so shocked... haha... i always thought it would be 1 mth in advance... but then again my other uncle said... he's character is just like that... so as long as its not 24 hours notice its good enough... haha*

well... went to school to help out in my teacher's fashion show... got to go tmr too... and early! well well... just got to wake up earlier then...

went to little india after the helping out session... haha... its like my first time there at night... and also my first time there to eat anything... oh how i love indian food! haha... went to this place for some vegetarian food... its not komalas... (heard its standard dropped so didnt bother to try) just a small restaurant... but oh my goodness... i'm gonna BURST! had this set dinner... which actually was like rice with lots of small dishes of curries and other sides... such as yoghurt, dhal, onion curry, salad, and a dessert! oooh... full full full... i seldom eat so much... haha... and then my dear friends HAVE to go get some chocolate fondue! haha... okie is DAMN sinful... and i'm supposed to be on a diet!!! OH MY GOODNESS!!

i went to thread my eyebrows today! haha... it wasnt very painful... only when threading certain points... but i think ppl who have the same experience would realise that tearing is a natural mechanism... lol... i mean it wasnt all that painful and i could still take it... but tears just welled up... but hey! i did great! i mean i didnt like frown and keep twitching like my other friend... haha... she was totally whining just now... its like the first time i got my eyebrows shaped... really amazing how just by threading my eyebrows i look different... haha... oh yes... i got it done by my friend's mother... its a shop at the place where the tourism board built like a nice bazaar like place... shop name is selvi... so if you wanna go try out threading you can go there! haha...

anyway... i'm trying to get my lazy bum off the couch and go jogging... every day i say... tmr morning i'll jog... tmr morning... haha but every morning i'll say... i dont feel like going down to jog... haha... the life of a procrastinator! (if theres a word like that) but tmr!!! i'm REALLY REALLY GONNA GO JOG!! before going to sch... hehe... i will!!! I WILL!!! and i was telling my friend that i'm gonna fast with her... and not eat lunch tmr... haha... see if i can tahan... but i dont think so... hehe... oh well...

*i need to loose a lot of weight! i want to! shall aim for more than 5kg by the end of the year!! then i can cross out number 5 on my wish list... ^^

new blog! inspired by the new pantene ad (the one with natasha bedingfield - unwritten)... it just brings a smile everytime i watch that ad... esp the 3rd part of it when the girl gives her hair a nice fling and she says "when i shine... i can see the rainbow... not the rain..." and there... dedicated to the bits and pieces of my life... the rainbow in my life...

finally a place where i can really rant... of coz it'll be extra work to maintain 2 blogs... esp when i'm desperately trying to get customers for my other one... (in case you didnt know my other blog is a selling blog... you can check it out... first site on *MY CIRCLE* at the navigations)well... lots of things been happening around... not the best of times for me... but i'm definitely trying to make the best out of it...

smile smile smile! well it really feels a lot better when you smile all the time... i mean... it keeps me going... and it definitely helps when i have my *fuji-san* right on my table all the time...


i've got a new haircut too! haha... and again... for those who dont already know... i've had my long hair... like long long hair... ever since i was 3... well i dont remember having anything shorter than shoulder length for at least a decade i would say... but all those things that've been happening around me these few weeks just made me really wanna have a change... and hair was the easiest to go i guess... yeah... was apprehensive coz i didnt wanna look hideous right now esp when i'm in fashion sch... but hey... i'm loving it so far... refreshing change... once in a while... i had told myself its time to try something new when i'm young... not like i'm that old... but i dont wanna end up regretting... so... away the hair went... and somehow... i felt lighter... like i dont have anything weighing me down anymore... i do mean it metaphorically... although it does still make sense if it were literally... (check out number 5 on my wish list and you'll understand)

for those friends who are looking forward to see me in my new haircut... well... at least not on this blog... YET... because i'm trying to give my friends a surprise (or shock) at a gathering we'll have soon... so... no luck in finding pics of me with my new bob here yet... but soon...

holidays right now... and i'm kinda looking forward to the new term... and also the new year... not quite adapting to the fact that holidays arent the usual time periods that i've had throughout my previous 12 years of education... but i am really happy with what i'm doing...

new new new! new term... new year... new hairstyle... new LIFE!

-TO NEW BEGINNINGS-